Acceptable Substitutions:

I wound up fucking off the yoga two days in a row... but, hear me out. I think I'm actually justified in this. (this time, anyway)

A significant portion of my yoga poses are designed to strengthen me where I become the most fatigued during/after some seriously hot sex.

Okay... so, I had an intimate encounter last night. Zero fatigue both during and after.

This morning I accidentally slept in by about 30 minutes, and then coffee and I were slow going because I was responding to messages and updating my private journal and my other blog with a great deal of information.

I was still about to *start* the yoga before 11 am. And that's my rule. I try to be DONE by 11 am, but on slow mornings it's okay if I at least start it by 11.

At 10:45 I received an important phone call. Someone who means more to me than the yoga itself. Someone worthy of taking my time away from my usual routine. As we talked I paced up and down my hallway and during the course of our conversation, my Fitbit signaled that I'd reached my step goal for the day.

Okay, so, technically I DID exercise. Both last night and this morning. So, I'm letting the yoga go for another day. I still feel a little 'off/guilty' about it. But I'm sure I'll be able to let that go soon enough.

Happy Mother Fucking New Year...

The Unicorn and I stayed up until Midnight last night.

We didn't really celebrate. If anything, it was heartbreaking. She goes back to her dad tonight. She goes back to the hell that is his judgment and scrutiny. She goes back to the yelling and spanking. All the mental and physical abuse… all in the name of keeping her disciplined towards a future that only he can see.

Fuck… as little as I've gotten done… my to-do list is nothing but 'recovery' anyway. Spending time with her is always more important, and I don't ever intend to lose sight of that again.

I am going to miss her.

I'm going to miss her a lot.

Fuck you 2017. You're off to one hell of a shitty start.

This morning I fucked off the yoga and poured myself an extra cup of coffee.

Fuck this shit.

Fuck today.

Fuck everything.


I'll get back to saving myself again tomorrow.

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